Class Chalet~

–23rd nov 2009 –
Meet with Joesph, Jiaqi and Evie at Lot1. Joesph pangseh Jieqing and went off with us. Trained to pasir ris and bused to downtown east. Bought some drinks and snacks, checked in with a stranger because we are not 18. Went in the chalet, me and joesph bathed. slacked on the bed, waited for others to arrive at like 5pm. was alone in the chalet for awhile because the other 3 went to collect bbq food, i had to wait for others to arrive. Went back to bed and watched Ah Long pte ltd on PSP while the girls played cards in the air-con-ed room. I laughed out once and they all turned to look at me. went back down to bbq, take pictures, and the game was on. Truth or Dare. Ami had to run around and shout, Jieqing had to dance the Nobody song. Then, after bbq, Josie and company rented bikes overnight, I went back to da bed. Talked, the cyclists came back. Borrowed their bikes, went cycling with Joseph and LingYuan, she led the way. Went back to chalet after one round in the place(idk what it’s called). Went back into the air-con room, the whole of us talked about everyone in our class, in index order. A group of us decided to go cycling again (me, joesph, ami, ely, jiaqi, lishan) wanted to go OCH, but in the end went to Redhouse, because we met a gang halfway who wanted to go redhouse explore. 5 guys from their gang, me, jiaqi and lishan climbed over the gate in to redhouse. went around, nothing haunted, but jiaqi claimed to see something. and she heard a girl laugh behind her while outside of redhouse. twice.continued cycling to OCH and went back. Damn nice night cycle with all the downhills and no cars. went back to chalet, talked somemore, and went out cycling again to watch sunrise. gave up and went back. i slept for like 1/2 hr and woke up.bored. (*btw, it’s already the next day at around 5~6am) most of the people went home, and on the second day, I was left alone in the chalet from 3~7.30pm till evie and jieqing came. before everyone left, me, joesph, lishan, ami and ely talked, or played truth. talked alot, till everyone left.
Time when i was alone–
From 3~5.30pm, i made things out of satay sticks and tissue, made sparkler rockets and flare. went out to downtown to buy sparklers and talked on the payphone for 20+mins with kellyn. Then, 5.30 to like 7pm, i went to walk along the beach, and came across someone fishing. watched him fished. he caught 2. went back chalet, on tv and fall asleep. a deep one. woke up to see jieqing and evie. ate sushi and jiaqi came. After, played some games of cards and decided to talk. nothing to talk. joseph came, gave me a bad news. was so looking foward to that. damn. wanted to watch Boo! but all were too scared. went to the shopping centre and walked around, and watched the movie trailers. Jieqing and joseph played Para para cos joseph was too curious. funny. then we played Daytona, i won! with evie 2nd, jieqing 3rd and joseph last. waited for yanhan and lishan and ely to come, and we went to K-box. sang and sang, i chose The Animal Song, which rocked the house! lol. went back chalet, they watched some movie with the dvd player, me and zhengen slept. woke up halfway, saw jieqing awake too. and found out we got sabotaged. some people poured smelly sauce over our shoes. went back to sleep, woke up at 7am. cleared the chalet, went to eat at mac. after, we checked out the chalet and me and ely and lishan and joseph took shuttle bus while others walked. we took the same train though. went home at around 10am+ and slept till 6pm.
done.

Reflection: love the cycling and the talking on the 2nd day among the 5 of us. overall, the bad thing about this chalet, from most of us, people were in their own world.

Persistance.

Though nothing will be the same again, I don’t regret it. I got it out of my heart, and that’s accomplishment and something worth a space in my memory.

I respect that.

I felt the warmth.

All I can do is wish for that image…

And,
I’ll wait.

I’ll wait…

Epoch of Love.

Every breath,
every image,
every sound,
every note,
every letter,
a word…

Spoken scales it seems,
no sound was heard.
Feared was,
the impromptu speech.
Improvisation would be,
hoped for the best yet the worst.

I said.

lovel

In quiet times I sit,
thinking often bit by bit.
The quiet I love,
wind blowing above.

The quiet starts to rumble and grow,
expressed words, slow.
Within, the truth prevail,
unraveling the moonlit veil.

The sun,
warming the snow,
it has just begun.
A quid pro quo,
is in fact the obvious.

A L for a L,
An O for an O,
A V for a V,
An E for an E,
L comes a long way back.

Lovel, quoth it.

Inamorato.

A moving sea
between the shores of our souls;
Strings of a lute alone be,
though we quiver with the same music go.

Blended into the shadows of an oak tree,
leaves made into necklace of our la-la-be.

Standing ahead in time,
piercing the darkness prime,
allowing light to shine on you.

Shy sweetness I taste,
entangled in bold lace.

Steady lights,
bright.
On the placid pool I stare,
wishing upon a star there.

Is my love strong like a tree?
Glee.
Is my love like a star?
So far…
So,
Is my love like a flower?

A rainbow shower,
colouring the garden of ours.
I made my wish,
not upon the stars now,
darling mine I bow,

“Gather the flowers one by one…”

 

 

Freed

Words are little children,
they run around you,
bugging you to let them play.

Words are like earthworms in a rainy day,
struggling to squirm out.

Letting out,
a virtue or a mean of relief?
Meaningful of the expressions,
letting out contains nothing but words.

Relief it may be,
time will come a day when you regret it.
A spur moment of foolishness,
of implusiveness,
all may be lost.

Good it felt,
children freed to play,
earthworms believing in the sun,
words emptying out of my mouth.

It never felt so good…

Marriage

My teacher asked our class to write a narrative essay in relation to a one-word essay- Marriage. This is an epic essay.

  “He loves me…he loves me not…he loves me…he loves me not…” as she continued plucking the sunflower petals.
  “Wow, this is tiring!” she complained at the 5, 038th petal.
  “A rafflesia would have been easier.”
  She continued plucking…
  “Oh man, I’ve just wasted my money to buy this stupid sunflower! He’s not worth this! Damn him! Damn me!” she paused and thought for a while and said, “opps.”

  “Mummy, what are you doing?” Little susy came into the fireplace where i was squatting in.
  “Burning” she replied, since she was squatting in the fireplace.
  “Cool!” Susy exclaimed, then added, “or should i say hot!”
  “you know, there’s always someing about you…”she thought for a moment and continued,” let me tell yo a little story.”
  “take a seat and i’ll tell you.” i said, directing susy to the couch.
  “But i like the fireplace!” Susy argued haughtily.
  “Don’t make me pull out my gun!” i threatened and sh stared defiantly at me, giving up in the end and went to the couch.
  “Hmph, sucker!” she mumbled. I fired a shot in between her legs.
  “as i was saying, every girl’s ream is to find a perfec life partner, regardless male or female, and drain him or her of their money. Well, it just so happens that during high school,  came acoss this rich kid. I was bimbo at that time, though i’m not sure what that means, but thats not the point. Our eyes met for the 1st time that time. That was when all hel broke lose. He was just a wannabe. In fact, he was only a janitor in the school. i was dumb; at that time, i believed that love was blind. i didnt care about his status in society, what mattered most was that our brain matched. our eyes locked ”
  “what happened then?” susy interrupted.
  “well, he finally propsed to me after 18 years. there were so many interruptions.”
  “what interruptions?” she interrupted again.
  “stop eff-ing interrupt me and i’ll tell you! Gosh!” i exclaimed in exasperation.
  “dont make me shoot you again, my gun’s already pulled out. as i was saying, he had many hidden identities. he disguised as a pig once, i even…let’s not talk about that. i remembered that 51st time he proposed, it was in a cave. he wanted to become superman; or he was desperate. so i accepted since he blocked the only way out of the cave with rubbles of rocks and boulders.
  “how did you get out?” she interruped yet again.
  “That’s it! i’m eff-ing gonna shoot you. but let me give you a brief introduction of you. you are the product of a accident. we never wanted you. because of your stubborn nature of a perm to squeeze into my egg, our lives are pretty screwed up. i’ll give you your last few words. YOU ARE  THE BIGGEST REGRET IN MY WHOLE LIFE! GO TO HELL!”
Bang.
Bang Bang.
Bang.
Banggggggggggggggggggg.
Squirt. o.o?
click click click.
  “oh damn, no bullets. im not finished yet!” i yelled as i grabbed little susy and threw her out of the window.
  “now im gonna fin him…If i can…”

  She went to her kitchen, took ot a knife…and a loaf of bread. She made herself a sandvich, and revocered 30hp. she holstered her minigun and left for work.

Haitus

Haitus is the word.

Sight, what do you see?

I’ve seen the world, I’ve breathe in the air, but that is not enough.
I’ve travelled to the ends of the world, I’ve flew to the maximal of sky, but that is not enough.

Felt have I, love, friendship, family, pain, longingness…
I’ve explored blindly in darkness, fear gripped me yet I stumbled on.
Valuable experiences I have achieved, but that is not enough.

Father Time has set a deadline for all of us,
working hand in hand with Mother Nature,
that we will never be able to discover the secrets of life completely.
They embrace us in hushes,
to let us enjoy the wonders of life.
However, we take their warmth and love for granted.
No! Man have to meddle with Nature,
Man wants to be above all.
Terrible, terrible, Man-made catastrophe attacked Mother Nature’s heart,
until she couldn’t hold us anymore.
Letting go…

All that we have lost,
we did not bother.
All that we have done,
it is not enough.

I lay under the tree,
looking up at the shining vault of heaven,
and I whispered:
“Please don’t let go…”